sleeponrooftops

this doesn't feel real.

I think it's high time I said my piece.  I've been avoiding this all night and day, but, well, here's to Jimmy...

He certainly wasn't anything I ever expected, and I love him for that.  There have been so many moments where I can't breathe because of him, whether from laughter, tears, frustration, joy, heartbreak, or anger.  He's unbelieving sometimes, in the best way, and he's the most creative person I've ever heard.

I never met him, never even came close, but, I feel like, without him, there would be nothing.  Jimmy was the rock we all held onto, the one we knew would never change, the one we knew would always be there to laugh and scream and do kung-fu.

I still don't really believe it.  I haven't cried, and I don't know if I will.  He was supposed to be invincible, he was supposed to be practically immortal.  No sane person could call themselves Jimmy Sullivan and just be a regular ole' guy.  He was something beautiful, he was special.

It hurts to hear his voice, to feel his laughter, to see his face, and I know it's because I can hear the boys, feel their hurt, see their tears.  My heart goes out to them, and I wish them the very best in this moment.  He was their best friend, that much was clear, and I'll never forget the look on Matt's face when Jimmy came up with A Little Piece of Heaven.  It was one of absolute adoration, respect, and fright.  One they always all shared in his amazing moments.

He was the very best of us, greater than any person I've ever known, heard of, or even just seen.  From his very appearance, he was better than most people, because he was undoubtedly more than original and he was himself, in the utmost respect.

I'll never look at a duck the same, I'll never think of grapes the same, I'll never acknowledge a drummer's skill again, I'll never understand why exactly my soul feels empty.

I don't know how to make sense of this, how to realize what's happened.  It doesn't make sense, it doesn't feel real, it doesn't... it's just not right.  Not Jimmy.

I'll never forget the way you made music bearable, the way you made insanity sane, the way you made life understandable.  You're one of the great ones, and you will be remembered for your epicness forever.

sleeponrooftops

rip jimmy sullivan.

you will be gravely missed.  iloveyou.